its 11:00pm on a saturday night. its november 28th and im still awake, writing this blog. i stare out my window and i think of the world thats alive and well outside of this house. i want to explore and break through all the boundaires that are stopping me. i want to runaway from every insecurity i have. i want to actually feel like ME for a day. ive been so cautious and wallowing in this self pity. im sick of it! im going to change what needs to be changed, and not dwell on whats meant to be. sitting around and complaining for 2 and a half yrs, has done me no good. cept for make me angry at myself and the world. im ok right? or at least i will be. tomorrow is a new day. track officially starts on monday. thats my focus. getting my geometry grade up, doing well in all my other classes, and excelling at track. im on the pursuit of happyness. and goddammit im gonna get their. jus watch me ;)

im with you -- avril lavigne