what i want is simple : when im sick, come to my house and make me some tea. or when its a boring sunday , watch a movie with me. text me and tell me im pretty. be the friend that i am to you........ isnt that what we all want

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its almost new years. 2010 here we come

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if you give me half a chance. i'll prove this to you. i will be patient, kind, faithful, and true. to a man who loves music ; a man who loves art ; repsects the spirit world and thinks with his heart

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where is this man?

i hope to find him one day

Probably the best quote in the history of the world. My favorite by far. I stand by it completely, and im posting it, so others may do the same. Enjoy

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am i to be brilliant, talented, gorgeous, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so others won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us ; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others people the permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberate others "

~~~~taken from the book, A Return to love: Reflections on the Principles of a Course in Miracles by Marianne Williamson

New years resolutions/ goals

*become healthier and more active. lose weight and finally feel ok with who i am (no i'm not obese, i just...well if you read my blogs you'd know that i have an eating disorder)

*get my grades up. mostly in geometry. focus on school, before anything or anyone else.

*find someone who gets me.

someone i can talk with, laugh, cry, hug and kiss.

find someone who actually likes me for me**

im sure their is a lot more to this list.

but these are the 3 main.

in order of importance.

i hope to accomplish all 3, and however more i have.

cheers

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its 11:09 and i just finished my homework. i spent probably the last 4 days wasting my time studying for a geometry quiz that im probably gonna fail. which is terrible because i got an F 1st quarter. F or failure!!! ugh whatever. i finally cut off some unwanted people in my life and it feels dam good. no more drama, i dont need it. im not a dramatic person, i just wanna live life.

we had a real track practice today. boy was it overwelming. i need to get over my insecurities and realize that people will ALWAYS be watching me. too bad that same person i hate does track too. oh well, build a bridge, push him over into the river, while i cross over! ;).

my love life? still non existent!

im out, good night bloggers :)