this week has been a whirl wind of emotions. my grades, mi familia, i just dont know where to start or what to do. i wanna run away. from my emotions, from the stress, from ppl. im real good at that . good at avoiding. avoiding the issue, instead of being brave and facing them head on.
idk i really want someone here with me.
i started talking to someone new. im guessing thats a good sign. but even he makes me question. its hard to actually get to know someone when everyone else has been after one thing. i have my guard up so high, i dont wanna let anyone in.
i really want track to start. i feel like thats whats gonna help. not coming home and having to see my family until late at night. i need to be out of this house. just me, and my throwing. thats all i need. things with my mom arent so good since i got that F in geometry. i cant take her yelling. i dont want to cry anymore. all i need is someone to talk to.
how is it that i can be in a sea of ppl, and still feel all alone?
someday this will all make sense. and everything im going through will be for something greater. we go through trials and tribulations, to get to our goals right? im still going to try. because at the end of all of this, im gonna make it. one way or another. theirs a light at the end of this tunnel. i just know it.
thats it for now.
song of my night : built this way--samantha ronson
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