So im waiting in anticipation for the lady from hasbro to call back. Oh wait, i didnt tell you guys about that yet did i ? Ok, lets take a couple steps back. As you've read, i have an eating disorder. I am a compulsive eater ( see memoirs of a compulsive eater). It has gotten worse in the last 3 yrs. I cry all the time, i eat my feelings, i've stolen money just for food, ahhhh, you get it right ? Well its come to my a point where its out of control. I dont know what im doing, and i obviously cant conquer this on my own. My mom has given up on trying to help me. I dont blame her, she's done all she can, and i love her for that. Hasbro is my last option. I've been looking into going to a treatment center. It'd be an all day thing where i'd go to therapy and work out and stuff. Very structured, but its what i need. I have no stability or structure in my life. Of course i would have to be taken out of school, my doctor would have to approve, and blue cross would need to cover it, but thats ok. Its a chance im willing to take. You gotta sacrifice you know ? When im not in treatment, then i'd be doing school work, and getting sleep, not too much time for friends. i wanna do this for a couple months, at least til June. So hopefully she calls back on monday, mom left her a voicemail yesterday. I NEED to get better. i cant keep going on like this, or else i'll be unhappy for a long time. I want to look good in pictures, have self confidence, and fit into clothes. I only have 2 yrs left of highschool and goddam it i wanna enjoy them. So if your reading this, pray, cross your fingers, idk do something. I just hope she calls back. Please.



Good night. ~~